So Much by The Spill Canvas

"How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one

How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt

Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down

Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me

Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home

If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

How does it feel?"

So this song kinda describes how i feel at the moment in my "love life" i have met someone who is so wonderful, i cant belive it. Ive been in love befor....well i think i have, and i know its not hard to get over, tell you the truth im still not fully recovered from it. When im talking to her....all my problems are gone and the rest of the world is clouded and its just her that i see. Its odd alot of things kinda fall into place or they are just a coincidence or what, her middle name is nicole and her birthday is exactly 1 month after mine and we also met like the day after me and my ex broke up... After me and my ex broke up, me and her just talked and talked for hours on end, she actouly kinda saved me from me in the summer when me and my ex broke up...i thought i had lost my entire world, ive never had to revocer from something like that...(well i have but she dident end up breaking up with me for my best friend the time befor) Im really glad that i have found Tanya (finnaly said her name) i met her through my sister, odd. This spring break im hopefully going to meet her with Kyle and Adam. She just makes me increadable happy, we can talk about whatever all day long. There has been things she hates and i have done, also things i still do and she dosent care, well she does but she accepts it, she likes me for ME! and i love that about her...with my ex, it was diffrent wasent like that, but now i know its how it should be, people should love you for YOU! and she does, and i love her for HER. I cant belive i have found someoen so great!!! We are not together for resons (mostly distance UGH) but, intime, i hope we end up together. I've never been so comfortable with talking to someone about nothing all day, or even important thing...and knowing her and talking to her and having that break up has made me a stronger person i think...i think it changed me actouly, in a way i see things diffrently, and now i think diffrently. In the begginging i was a bitch to her, i asked her out then the next day i dumped her for todd... and i cant belive that she would still like me, but she stuck around and we still talked(i was SO glad she would), i felt so bad after but now i wouldent go out with anyone, even if she is on the island and ive never met her or w.e shes is such a wonderful and im willing to waste my time to wait to meet her and see how things go. Withc i think they will go great, i wish i could describe how she makes me feel, its just such a good feeling, its like a feeling of extream happyness (i cant stop smiling), scarry(butterflys in da tummy) and just wanting to be with her and just hold her and look at her, hot have a care in the world cuz im with her. -sigh- :) so yeah, i think im falling in love..... :D